an error

Couldn't do it.

couldn't quit.

moment of clarity.

i'm aware.

does that make a difference?

who cares?

i'd rather not be here anyways, every day.

will this chase you away?

will you try to "save"?

"life would never leave me alone."

we all know how she ended

a few similiarities. a few small pieces to connect on...


"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

hard to quit, worth it?

I would like:

road trips with my favorite females, 

to have a drink, 

to smoke a cigarette, 

a WARM windy day 

and perhaps a trip to a larger city (I only have to wait two days for this though.)

current, currant

things i like:

Things i miss:

 summer, swimming, etc...

short blue monday playlist

breakaway

i just don't know any other way.

when i'm with you

in other news...

moving on

I will not take blame or responsibility, not for this.
You're an idiot, and you've wasted this all.  
It'll break my heart to look at you for the rest of my time here.
But looking is all i'll do, even that will be a rarity.

sweetness, sweetness, I was only joking...

A playlist for your wednesday.

no i never could be tamed, better believe it

Are you kidding me? Lily Cole? KISS? Jesus Christ.

With an unfortunate abundance of time to think of you.

One of my favorite photographers, Nan Goldin, photographed a series of real-life couples having sex.

I love how (obviously) sexual these shots are, without seeming pornographic.  Just real.

lady lazarus

Herr God, Herr Lucifer
Beware
Beware.

Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And I eat men like air.

who cares?

after a bit of a rest, i'll be back for a week.

don't you please make me real, come on

It's sunday, so...

....just a few babes with bushes

if you live through this with me

  

"I'm not a woman. I'm a force of nature."
- Courtney Love

gutless

It has taken me a little over a week to sit down and actually write this.  I wanted to do it sooner, but it just wasn't something I was prepared to think about in depth, but obviously, how could I not?  This event has replayed in my mind countless times and I tried foolishly to block it out.

Last week I witnessed a "man" beat up his girlfriend.  He repeatedly punched her in the face while sitting on top of her, and broke her nose.

The thought actually went through his head that it would be okay to do this.  This is something that wasn't wrong to him.  

He was about 6' tall, and she was around 5'4.  She didn't stand a chance.  He would've known this.  When she pushed him back in retaliation for his first push, and he actually fell, that was it.

This kind of thing happens all of the time.  It happens to people who I'm friends with, people who I know, people who I see around.

And it is not okay.  No one in this world has the right to take away so much from you.

Most men can't even fathom what it would feel like to have every last bit of dignity, strength, pride, courage, and control over your own body taken away from them.  And it's not just as assault (of any kind) is occurring, the after effects are just as bad if not worse sometimes.

While this was happening, while I witnessed this piece of shit commit a horrible offence on someone who trusted him, there was a group of around eight males standing and watching.  

THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.  

How could they not do anything?  The EASILY could have over powered him.

I lost my fucking mind.  How could this be happening and no one was doing anything?

If this happened to me, would anyone intervene?  Would I have a crowd of people watching me, like some barbaric ritual?  

Are people that scared to get hurt that they wont even stand up for someones basic rights as a human being?  

I was with my boyfriend and the two of us were the only people to yell at him,

the only two to call the police,

and the only two to clean her up and stay with her.

I wanted to write this to bring it to peoples' attention.  This is not a rare occurrence, it happens all the time.

If helping someone else means that I have to get hurt, so be it.  I know that if I were in that situation it wouldn't even be measurable how grateful I would be.

Please don't turn away and pretend it doesn't exist.  If it's not in your life realise how lucky you are, but be aware that not everyone else has that luxury.  And those people need help.

No one deserves to have their rights stripped from them.  And no one has the right to take them away from you.

touching from a distance

male babe o' the day

I love Robert Downey Jr.

Dear god, how could you not?

april fifth

currently into:

nice weather

friends who put in effort (especially those who live in different countries and still are amazing)

this good friend reminded me that how you react to things defines you, and it's been such a motivator recently.

and that's about it.

under the moonlight

This song has been on constant repeat.