skttrbrain

an error

2011-01-29T16:37:00.000-06:00

Couldn't do it.

couldn't quit.

moment of clarity.

i'm aware.

does that make a difference?

who cares?

i'd rather not be here anyways, every day.

will this chase you away?

will you try to "save"?

"life would never leave me alone."

we all know how she ended

2011-01-29T16:25:00.000-06:00

a few similiarities. a few small pieces to connect on...

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

hard to quit, worth it?

2011-01-20T18:07:00.000-06:00

I would like:

road trips with my favorite females,

to have a drink,

to smoke a cigarette,

a WARM windy day

and perhaps a trip to a larger city (I only have to wait two days for this though.)

current, currant

2011-01-17T17:38:00.000-06:00

things i like:

Things i miss:

summer, swimming, etc...

short blue monday playlist

2011-01-17T16:40:00.000-06:00

breakaway

2011-01-17T16:09:00.000-06:00

i just don't know any other way.

when i'm with you

2010-12-26T20:00:00.000-06:00

in other news...

moving on

2010-12-26T19:57:00.001-06:00

I will not take blame or responsibility, not for this.
You're an idiot, and you've wasted this all.
It'll break my heart to look at you for the rest of my time here.
But looking is all i'll do, even that will be a rarity.

sweetness, sweetness, I was only joking...

2010-12-15T19:17:00.000-06:00

A playlist for your wednesday.

no i never could be tamed, better believe it

2010-12-11T23:47:00.000-06:00

Are you kidding me? Lily Cole? KISS? Jesus Christ.

With an unfortunate abundance of time to think of you.

2010-12-09T13:12:00.000-06:00

One of my favorite photographers, Nan Goldin, photographed a series of real-life couples having sex.

I love how (obviously) sexual these shots are, without seeming pornographic. Just real.

lady lazarus

2010-12-06T23:50:00.000-06:00

Herr God, Herr Lucifer
Beware
Beware.

Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And I eat men like air.

who cares?

2010-12-06T00:50:00.000-06:00

after a bit of a rest, i'll be back for a week.

don't you please make me real, come on

2010-04-26T00:39:00.000-05:00

It's sunday, so...

....just a few babes with bushes

if you live through this with me

2010-04-24T15:18:00.001-05:00

"I'm not a woman. I'm a force of nature."
- Courtney Love

gutless

2010-04-21T23:37:00.000-05:00

It has taken me a little over a week to sit down and actually write this. I wanted to do it sooner, but it just wasn't something I was prepared to think about in depth, but obviously, how could I not? This event has replayed in my mind countless times and I tried foolishly to block it out.

Last week I witnessed a "man" beat up his girlfriend. He repeatedly punched her in the face while sitting on top of her, and broke her nose.

The thought actually went through his head that it would be okay to do this. This is something that wasn't wrong to him.

He was about 6' tall, and she was around 5'4. She didn't stand a chance. He would've known this. When she pushed him back in retaliation for his first push, and he actually fell, that was it.

This kind of thing happens all of the time. It happens to people who I'm friends with, people who I know, people who I see around.

And it is not okay. No one in this world has the right to take away so much from you.

Most men can't even fathom what it would feel like to have every last bit of dignity, strength, pride, courage, and control over your own body taken away from them. And it's not just as assault (of any kind) is occurring, the after effects are just as bad if not worse sometimes.

While this was happening, while I witnessed this piece of shit commit a horrible offence on someone who trusted him, there was a group of around eight males standing and watching.

THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.

How could they not do anything? The EASILY could have over powered him.

I lost my fucking mind. How could this be happening and no one was doing anything?

If this happened to me, would anyone intervene? Would I have a crowd of people watching me, like some barbaric ritual?

Are people that scared to get hurt that they wont even stand up for someones basic rights as a human being?

I was with my boyfriend and the two of us were the only people to yell at him,

the only two to call the police,

and the only two to clean her up and stay with her.

I wanted to write this to bring it to peoples' attention. This is not a rare occurrence, it happens all the time.

If helping someone else means that I have to get hurt, so be it. I know that if I were in that situation it wouldn't even be measurable how grateful I would be.

Please don't turn away and pretend it doesn't exist. If it's not in your life realise how lucky you are, but be aware that not everyone else has that luxury. And those people need help.

No one deserves to have their rights stripped from them. And no one has the right to take them away from you.

touching from a distance

2010-04-07T23:03:00.000-05:00

male babe o' the day

2010-04-07T09:05:00.000-05:00

I love Robert Downey Jr.

Dear god, how could you not?

april fifth

2010-04-05T17:55:00.000-05:00

currently into:

nice weather

friends who put in effort (especially those who live in different countries and still are amazing)

this good friend reminded me that how you react to things defines you, and it's been such a motivator recently.

and that's about it.

under the moonlight

2010-04-05T15:34:00.000-05:00

This song has been on constant repeat.

enjoy the silence

2010-03-26T02:34:00.000-05:00

And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you
Just what you want me to.

in the sun

2010-03-19T01:36:00.001-05:00

and walked upon the edge of no escape

2010-03-18T22:38:00.000-05:00

how very very good

2010-03-17T01:55:00.000-05:00

you know those nights where you should be sleeping but you're just too stubborn to gad danged go to bed?

you know those guys who aren't very cute but always date total babes?

you know those babes who act like turds so it brings down their babe status'?

you know those coughs that you let rip into your shirt so that you wont wake up your room mate?

you know those pictures that you take that you'll only ever show one person?

well, did you know it's just been one of those nights for me?

madge

2010-03-12T00:33:00.002-06:00

i'm just feeling madonna tonight.

Deperately Seeking Susan? So good.

The idea of this video being banned from regular broadcasting before 9pm is so ridiculously insulting.

madonna, you can do no wrong in my eyes.

oh behb

2010-03-04T01:07:00.000-06:00

changes and changes and changes and changes

2010-02-27T22:23:00.000-06:00

this is pretty much all i've been listening to for the past week.

rude boy

2010-02-25T00:51:00.000-06:00

i saw shutter island last night and my leo flame was re-ignited.

soon, please

2010-02-24T02:26:00.001-06:00

i want to wear shorts,

breathe in sweet fresh-cut grass scented air,

hear birds chirping,

not hear my radiators,

leave my windows open,

bike-ride,

have some BDI ice cream,

and generally just be so content with being content.

this will be me. minus the blonde hair.

"the february wildcats"

2010-02-14T14:12:00.000-06:00

i aint worried about nothin.

right now and not later, baby

2010-02-09T01:24:00.000-06:00

ALRIGHT WINNIPEG,

I'M READY FOR

WARM WEATHER AND

DRINKING BY

THE RIVER.

ALSO, I AM FULLY PREPARED TO

DANCE BY CETTE RIVER UNTIL THE WEE HOURS OF THE MORNING.

your pretty face is going to hell

2010-02-07T21:24:00.001-06:00

What is it about certain people, that attracts them to the down-trodden of society so specifically?

Is it a subconsious desire to forget their own pain by focusing solely on the problems of others?

Or is it moreso a selfish, vicious circle, driven by the need to help others in order to fill some self-gratifying egoistical void?

What comes is better than what came before

2010-02-04T01:49:00.000-06:00

lost little girl

2010-01-27T18:39:00.000-06:00

it doesn't matter where i am in the world

i'll always feel the same.

it's just the power to charm

2010-01-24T16:01:00.000-06:00

since i'll be gone for a week i needed to post a few babes

on the road again..

2010-01-24T02:26:00.000-06:00

this will be me in 32 hours.

not soon enough.

Quand he suis seule, quand je m'ennuie

2010-01-22T07:20:00.000-06:00

Quand ils sont longs les jours de pluie
Quand je suis seule quand je m'ennuie
Que dans un rythme monotone
Au fond de moi ton nom résonne

Il me reste cet air-là
Qui vient me parler de toi
Car en chantant cet air-là
Je ne peux penser qu'à toi

Lorsque tour à tour dans ma vie
Que je n't'ai pas vu de la semaine
Que je dis comme une litanie
À mon oreiller que je t'aime

Il me reste cet air-là
Qui vient me parler de toi
Car en chantant cet air-là
Je ne peux penser qu'à toi

Sur le triste quai d'une gare
Si un jour la vie nous sépare
Ou que ton cœur change de route
Moi j'aurai le mien en déroute

Il restera cet air-là
À jamais au fond de moi
Car pour toujours cet air-là
Parlera de toi et moi

Il restera cet air-là
À jamais au fond de moi
Et je sais que cet air-là
Te ramènera vers moi

What am I doing?

gah

2010-01-18T01:55:00.001-06:00

I can't wait.

Viva Glam

And for memorie's sake, some of my favorite past launches:

so saucy.

cause they're brown eyes and you never know

2010-01-18T01:43:00.000-06:00

Wino forever

Currently interested in:

- Pot of gold chocolates

- Travelling to rainy cities

- Flying in general.

- Speechless by Lady Gaga (Live)

- Being nonchalant

- Staying up all night writing

find myself a city to live in

2010-01-11T22:42:00.002-06:00

satisfaction, satisfaction. keep me satisfied.

2010-01-08T01:08:00.000-06:00

It's January 8th, and you know what that means?

It's David Bowie's birthday!

favorie bowie album:

Station to Station

i'm gonna pack it up

2010-01-05T22:30:00.001-06:00

counting down the days until my epic voyage commences...

all bowie, all the time

2010-01-05T15:14:00.000-06:00

she'll love him, she'll love him, but just for a short while.

New year, new outlook. Or something.

If 2008 was my year of transitions, and 2009 was an insanity-filled (and fueled) year, here is my question;

what in the world will 2010 bring me?

As long as it's filled with rock and roll and babes, i'll be satisfied.

she likes to take a shit when things get out of hand

2009-12-30T14:06:00.000-06:00

isn't it obvious?

2009-12-30T13:58:00.000-06:00

“I wouldn't recommend sex, drugs or insanity for everyone, but they've always worked for me.” - Hunter S. Thompson.

mystery boys will be your toys

2009-12-24T01:50:00.000-06:00

I'm finding myself making a list of things that I need in life. I'm pretty frivolous though and being as such I can only concentrate on the things that are temporary and perhaps less than imminent.

I could use a nice green dress for instance,

or how about a sea foam coloured wall?

To be honest though, the thing I want most right now is to hop on a motorcycle with some babe and leave it all behind.

if you run your fingers through the hair, can you get get them out?

2009-12-21T11:53:00.000-06:00

sleepless

2009-12-16T00:51:00.003-06:00

As of this moment, this is what I'm into:

Daria wearing tight pants and being generally dreamy

Messy brunettes

Big hair

and of course; Claudia. Always and forever

we just can't do anything about it

2009-12-13T22:38:00.000-06:00

You've got her in your pocket
And there's no way out now
Put it in the safe and lock it
'cause it's at home sweet home

you get what you want, and you'll never want it again

2009-12-13T09:05:00.000-06:00

The day after is the worst, especially when it's a heavy descision day. I'm going to need tomorrow off.

lusting

2009-12-11T20:34:00.001-06:00

I'm in need of some serious babes.

this woman might not be a babe, but who cares?

the beautiful ones, they hurt you every time

2009-12-08T14:18:00.000-06:00

constantly curious

2009-12-06T22:14:00.002-06:00

I need out in a bad, bad way.

I could live with the llama's.

who can tell anymore?

daydream nation

2009-12-04T21:54:00.000-06:00

When one has her head up her ass, it's hard for one to see clearly.

I got chills, they're multiplyin'

2009-12-03T09:16:00.002-06:00

I've put it off long enough. Today is the first day of the year to wear my winter coat!

(Andy L and I)

"If I'd observed all the rules, I'd never have got anywhere."

2009-12-02T11:01:00.000-06:00

I do love a good babe smoking weed...

check it out!

Oh, Marilyn!

heard headed woman

2009-12-02T01:56:00.000-06:00

I am not going to sit around and wait for anyone.

I'm much too impatient and far to stubborn for that.

It's the redheaded gene fused with those double x chromosomes.

You, quite simply, mustn't fuck around with us.

I'm a creature of pride, and if cette pride has been sullied in the least,

I will shut you out.

the problems at hand are lighter than at heart

2009-11-29T15:32:00.002-06:00

I apparently have too many naked babes on here. Not enough, I think.

i'm really into Guy Bourdin's photography.

Pre scientology.

Inspiration for a new brow do. The girl on the left is actually killing it with those green eyebrows.

in my eyes, in my eyes

2009-11-27T00:38:00.000-06:00

oh, leo

2009-11-26T20:37:00.001-06:00

dedicated to riel

"how dare you, how old are you now anyways?"

2009-11-26T13:42:00.000-06:00

This is the sort of thing I have to deal with on a daily basis.

Big, stupid, giant babies.

some of what appeals to me today

2009-11-26T00:37:00.000-06:00

always redheads

burnt out eyes

water

friends

You know I look like a woman but I..

2009-11-23T13:07:00.000-06:00

though my heart beats so slow

2009-11-22T01:20:00.000-06:00

part 2

but my mind holds the key

an ode to (a few) babes of the red haired kind

2009-11-20T18:06:00.000-06:00

Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And eat men like air.

-Sylvia Plath

Jessica Stam - model

Pamela Des Barres - famous for being a babe, among other "scandelous" things..

Maureen "moe" Tucker - bad ass drummer for the Velvet Underground

Lily Cole - Model

it's leaving season

2009-11-20T01:08:00.000-06:00

My body is a cage
That keeps me from dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key.

I have tomorrow off, so I'm going to wash my hair before I look like this:

And just so this post isn't without some kind of babely thing...lily cole everyone.

well you see her, waddlin' around..

2009-11-17T22:34:00.000-06:00

moral dilemma of the day...

Is it wrong for me to peruse through facebook pictures of old highschool classmates, and revel in the fact that they look horrible at 21?

See, I don't think so. In highschool, these were the people that thought very highly of themselves, and seeing them in shitsville already is the most satisfying feeling.

Living well is the best revenge.

fuck y'all :)

jesus christ

2009-11-17T21:33:00.000-06:00

THIS is disgusting. this is actually a fish that is still alive (somehow) after being fried and people are laughing at it.

i hate everyone.

i knew i'd wipe that paint from your lips

2009-11-10T19:46:00.000-06:00

listen, you're real cute and all but just because red lipstick is in, does not mean you can wear it, and own it.
until you've figured it out, please stop.
thanks!

they'll be spittin in your eye

2009-11-10T01:45:00.000-06:00

"you are nothing more than your imagination and one day, you'll lose it all."

currently into:

2009-11-08T22:27:00.000-06:00

babes smoking.

blank

2009-11-06T00:44:00.000-06:00

babes

2009-11-05T23:33:00.000-06:00

because, why the hell not?

no fun

2009-10-21T00:20:00.001-05:00

so into this right now

2009-09-15T00:51:00.001-05:00

some girls

2009-06-26T21:02:00.001-05:00

time

2009-06-19T08:38:00.000-05:00

Another day, another migraine.

But John frusciante, you may save my soul.
"Wonder what it is that makes the world turn slower. Wonder what it is that makes me feel so mad. Everyone that talks to me i so wish wouldn't. I wouldn't even care except i feel so bad."

french toast

2009-06-18T21:38:00.000-05:00

watch between the 30 and 45 seconds marks.
what an ass.
silly LOLhan...

and THIS is not good. not good at all.

here it is

2009-06-09T11:49:00.000-05:00

the taunt

SUSPICIOUS

2009-06-06T21:17:00.000-05:00

steven tyler in highschool

the joker

the road's gonna end on me

2009-06-04T21:09:00.000-05:00

listen.

Warrior - Yeah Yeah Yeahs

~~alex ateah~~

2009-05-25T19:16:00.000-05:00

i've somehow managed to give myself a concussion, so while i'm off i'm going to try and enjoy my days. here are some things i'm currently into.

jimi

watching movies that i haven't seen in so long. next is dazed and confused and 200 cigarrettes.

david bowie, always.

painting

the beatles

warm weather and going here for a sweet goog special.

with today in mind

2009-05-25T14:31:00.000-05:00

Still Raining, Still Dreaming - Jimi Hendrix Experience

i know what you're thinking

2009-05-19T00:50:00.000-05:00

i have to return some videos

2009-05-18T02:14:00.000-05:00

CHECK THIS OUT.

jimmy page is a god

2009-05-17T00:16:00.001-05:00

my blog is basically just songs i'm so into.

one of my all time favorite zeppelin songs, and one of my favorite performances of it.
this video isn't the best quality but the DVD version is so much better.

if you're wanting to melt your face off, watch between the 3:55 and 5:15 time space.

i've had my share

2009-05-10T20:13:00.000-05:00

guess what he told me

2009-05-10T00:54:00.000-05:00

ever feel like you're rotting in a god forsaken shit hole and you need to get the fuck out, pronto?
i do.

mean mean man

2009-05-07T18:57:00.000-05:00

"The thermometer of success is merely the jealousy of the malcontents."
-Salvador Dali

little ashes is out tomorrow...wonder if it'll be any good?

online shopping sucks when you're broke.

2009-05-05T00:52:00.001-05:00

if anyone feels like buying me the following things, i wont object.

some sweet biker shorts

subdued harem pants

to make things easier on you, these can all be found at urbanoutfitters.com

babes

2009-05-03T01:51:00.000-05:00

Black Tongue - Yeah Yeah Yeahs

how nice

2009-04-30T23:13:00.000-05:00

religion = torture?

babes

2009-04-23T21:23:00.000-05:00

the scene between 1:15 and 1:30 is the funniest shit.

wonderful

2009-04-22T17:52:00.000-05:00

i sometimes wish it were a possibility for me to just find an island and live with select few, good, people. i hate knowing that there are people on this earth with such neanderthal ways of thinking still.

i know it is more than possible that someone could be against my beliefs, but i see less harm in welcoming the possibilty that everyone has good in them, rather than rejecting people based on generalizations.

listen to this if you want to hear an extreme asshole.

i decided to look into him, so i visited his website and saw a link for "conservative t shirts" and this is the sort of thing that pops up.

we all live, breath, bleed and die. there are no superiorities amongst humans.

hard headed woman

2009-04-19T14:51:00.001-05:00

i had a bad day today, so i decided to go buy some music.

i just bought this album, and if you're into rock and roll at all, you should listen to it.

fuck this

2009-03-27T10:36:00.000-05:00

EVERY SINGLE DAY I HAVE A FUCKING HEADACHE.

i'm really sick of it, it's really rare for me to wake up now without one. and they're not just mild annoying headaches. they range from fairly sore to excruciating migraine. i've gone for tests, i've taken pills, i've tried natural methods, and not a god damned thing ever fucking works longterm. perhaps it's because when i look outside i want to kill myself because of how utterly ridiculous it is out there.
rantrantrant.

do this to my head please, as soon as possible.

sweet darlin'

2009-03-25T16:29:00.000-05:00

There are few things greater than having the day off and having time to do, whatever it is, that you need to do.
What I’ve been needing to do, badly, is take some serious “me time”.

So far today I’ve:

Gone to kb’s house.
Grabbed a coffee with kb.
Did some grocery shopping.
Had a gloriously relaxing shower.
Listened to some new music.
Tidied up a bit.
Did some sweet stretches and exercised (something I’ve just started doing and am feeling great about).
Ate some yummy yoghurt and a croissant, in my underwear, on my couch.
And now I’m about to start a painting.

just killing it.

2009-03-25T00:55:00.001-05:00

george carlin is in hell.

2009-03-18T21:47:00.000-05:00

outrageous.
like it exists.

here is a sweet update for you.
-i'm pretty happy right now
-even though i haven't been sleeping. for 2 weeks..
-old connections have been made, and as hard as it is, i'm so glad they have.
-this summer has a lot of promise.
-i can't wait to be in another country, surrounded by a language i don't understand.
-riel is awesome, and saves me when i need! also, she buys me twilight posters so that's amazing.
-getting tattooed hopefully by the end of march, or early april.

that is all for now.

now that i know

2009-03-06T13:37:00.001-06:00

soooo excited about this!

skttrbrain

an error

we all know how she ended

hard to quit, worth it?

current, currant

short blue monday playlist

breakaway

when i'm with you

moving on

sweetness, sweetness, I was only joking...

no i never could be tamed, better believe it

With an unfortunate abundance of time to think of you.

lady lazarus

who cares?

don't you please make me real, come on

if you live through this with me

gutless

touching from a distance

male babe o' the day

april fifth

under the moonlight

enjoy the silence

in the sun

and walked upon the edge of no escape

how very very good

madge

oh behb

changes and changes and changes and changes

rude boy

soon, please

"the february wildcats"

right now and not later, baby

your pretty face is going to hell

What comes is better than what came before

lost little girl

it's just the power to charm

on the road again..

Quand he suis seule, quand je m'ennuie

gah

cause they're brown eyes and you never know

find myself a city to live in

satisfaction, satisfaction. keep me satisfied.

i'm gonna pack it up

all bowie, all the time

she likes to take a shit when things get out of hand

isn't it obvious?

mystery boys will be your toys

if you run your fingers through the hair, can you get get them out?

sleepless

we just can't do anything about it

you get what you want, and you'll never want it again

lusting

the beautiful ones, they hurt you every time

constantly curious

daydream nation

I got chills, they're multiplyin'

"If I'd observed all the rules, I'd never have got anywhere."

heard headed woman

the problems at hand are lighter than at heart

in my eyes, in my eyes

oh, leo

"how dare you, how old are you now anyways?"

some of what appeals to me today

You know I look like a woman but I..

though my heart beats so slow

an ode to (a few) babes of the red haired kind

Out of the ashI rise with my red hairAnd eat men like air.

-Sylvia Plath

it's leaving season

well you see her, waddlin' around..

jesus christ

i knew i'd wipe that paint from your lips

they'll be spittin in your eye

currently into:

blank

babes

no fun

so into this right now

some girls

time

Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And eat men like air.

~~alex ateah~~